I recently started back attending college. When I was pregnant I was working on my bachelor’s degree. My husband and I decided for me to be a stay at home mom and it was best for me to take a break from school. It really came at the perfect time as I was getting burnt out and was ready to quit. Now that Rama is almost two years old it was time for me to go back. Only thing is I didn’t realize I would have so much mom guilt by going back.
At first, I was super nervous as I have been with Rama since he was born and didn’t want to miss anything. I wanted to be there with him for all his little adventures but with class that wasn’t going to be possible. The other issue I had was going to school 3 days a week and two of those days leaving at 7am and getting home at 7pm. Ramas bedtime is at 8pm so that doesn’t leave much time to spend with him as he is ready to go to bed by the time I eat dinner.
After first month
After the first month I realized it wasn’t a big problem and a nice break for both of us. I am starting to feel like a human being again instead a mombie. We do have an issue with him still not sleeping through the night though so I run on 4 hours of sleep most days, yikes. Rama is happy and that really is all that matters. I do have mornings I would just rather stay home and spend the day with him and cuddle. Those mornings can be especially hard and does make me wonder why I went back at times. I know though that I need to finish my degree it would be a great thing for our family.
It is tough
It is tough being a college student and mom but I wouldn’t change it. I do suffer horrible mom guilt as I don’t get to spend as much time with him as I would like to. I just have so much homework and studying to do. The days I can I try to take Rama out to spend some quality time together. We will go to the park or just even go in the backyard to play.
I plan on buying him more arts and crafts so we can do more crafts together as a family. It is a wonderful way to create memories, have fun, and spend time together. We have done a few crafts recently for Halloween. It was so much fun and funny to watch. Rama had an identical look to my husband while we were painting pumpkin ornament’s. I will have to tell you all about it soon.
The mom guilt doesn’t go away and I doubt it will. We all face it from time to time and have to learn to deal with it in our own way. I will have guilt for going to the gym. Even though I know I need to in order to lose weight and be able to keep up with him. It doesn’t change the fact though that it is time I am missing out on spending time with him. I would go when he is asleep but he still wakes up through out the night and I am the only one who can nurse him back to sleep.
I also have bad guilt when I have to study or do my homework. I would much rather be playing with him or doing crafts. When he brings me a book to read I do stop whatever I am doing and will read it to him. I do feel guilty when he wants me to go outside but I have a project that has to be finished so can’t and then by the time I am done it is to dark out so we can’t. Trying to find time for everything is something I definitely have been trying to work on. Especially finding more time to spend with my little one is my top priority.
It is doable
Going to college as a mom is tough but totally doable. Especially if you have a great support system like I do. My family does help take a lot of stress off my plate and have been helping a lot with Rama. They watch him and take care of him while I am at school or doing homework. Did you have a baby in college? If so how was your experience?